The touch of nature has been important. Nature balances me and I don't have to do anything other than enjoy my experiences in it. And sure I spent weeks before this one going to the forest near my house a few times a week, but for some reason it wouldn't do anything to me. I needed to literally float in salt water and set myself in flames under the sun REPEATEDLY in order to actually FEEL something other than despair. And like I said, my feeling better was also very much about podcasts and books and a spiritual practice and communing with my goddess and journaling and making tough decisions and feeling tons of shame and working through it all and... well, a lot more other activities. One day I simply woke up feeling inspired. I don't know what happened during my sleep.
I've been obsessed with my Victorian Fairy tarot deck, as always. I can never not have it around, it's just so totally me, and I'm so connected to it. I've also been reading a lot of norse/viking history and myths, and that's kept me excited and obsessive. I've also dedicated a whole week to review my Leonie workbook, take inventory of the year so far and plan not only the rest of the year but also the rest of the summer season. Speaking of the late summer approaching, I'm extremely excited for Lammas for some reason, it's strange because I've never been particularly obsessed with it. I'm a Beltane & Solstice person. I've already changed the Solstice colors in my seasonal bouquet and made a Lammas inspired one. Also (so many alsos), I've started my own A Year and A Day thing/path. I don't know how to call it. I've never liked any of the AYaAD I've seen in textbooks because I'm not Wiccan and I'm not into rules, so I'm making my own. Only I know what I need to explore and learn and express. I'm extremely excited about it.