Sorry about the bad quality of the photos. It was too dark for my poor camera, and also I still don't know my camera very well. Logically, I know there must be some setting for dark spaces, but I haven't found it yet cause me & technology don't get along.
A reading I did for myself about my relationship. Extremely accurate! Barcelona city. That afternoon in the city we ended up going into one of the many Gothic cathedrals, where coincidentally a mass was taking place. I adore going to cathedrals, churches and just any temple of any religion because I love the cold, the darkness, the serenity, the smells, the calm & quiet, the no rushing to get anywhere, the architecture & the echoes. Sorry about the bad quality of the photos. It was too dark for my poor camera, and also I still don't know my camera very well. Logically, I know there must be some setting for dark spaces, but I haven't found it yet cause me & technology don't get along. Life: ✫ I love how well I've integrated the breakup with C, I've felt centered and inspired all autumn ✫ My oracle of Shadows & Light. I've been doing a daily draw to prompt me to reflect on things, and it's been so helpful ✫ My strawberry plant that is taking over my garden! ✫ Finished a journal and started a new one in September! Don't you love fresh new notebooks ✫ Buying a ton of essential oils ✫ First Aid Kit ✫ My mom bought me my first ever lemon slushie, soooo good! ✫ Donating money to Kelly Eden's gofundme even though I don't care about Sailor Moon at all and I don't watch her episodes, but I love her other content, her art and Kelly herself and I wanted to give back to her after all the soulful content she shares with everyone ✫ Ink & stamps, I'm so obsessed ✫ Went to see las perseidas (star shower/meteor shower..? translation?) to the top of the mountain with my dad, my sister and J at 2am. It was the most magical night of the whole year for me ✫ Read The Cursed Child and hated it ✫ Finally watched Ghostbusters and loved it ✫ Filling my room with coffee scented & ginger scented candles ✫ Sold a few of my books online that I didn't plan on re-reading ✫ That super fun day with C in August in Barcelona city shopping for really cool things (and yes I bought even more stamps for my ink, not sorry) ✫ The studyblr community on tumblr ✫ Bought a few books from amazon and hated them all, what is going on! Except one, Living Thelema, that was interesting although nothing new, the content was already very familiar to me and I'm not into Thelema's "rules" or beliefs, so although the book was really interesting as curiosity reading, it didn't affect my life in any tangible way ✫ Started reading The Raven Boys because my sister read the four books recently and told me I had to read them too. So far the first book is good, but I'm not hooked, I hope it gets better please, I really want to finally find a book that captivates me, everything I read is disappointing, come oooon ✫ Sarbdeep Swan started a blog and he's on a mission to expose Teal. Finally! I'm so glad that more and more people are coming forth talking about Teal and how dangerous she is. ✫ The film Far From The Madding Crowd, I've lost count of how many times I've watched it, it's one of my comfort films ✫ Outlander, another comfort ✫ An abundance of cloudy days ✫ Beltaine (the band, I mean) ✫ Vegan mozzarella cheese ✫ Burning cinnamon oil all day ✫ Bon Iver ✫ Listened to as many covers as I could find by many many people of Fleetwood Mac's Dreams ✫ Quiet walks with C on Sunday evenings, sometimes in the fields, sometimes in the forest. Did my best to make a Summer Lookbook on my yt channel. So so so many thanks go to C for helping me film. You see, I adore filming and photographing, they're passions of mine, but posing or being filmed is extremely awkward for me, I prefer to do behind-the-scenes work and have someone or something else be the center of attention. I felt very inspired all summer long to do a couple of yt vids, it just called me, so I did. I'd love to do more vids and to keep exploring my own mind and the world around me through a lens and through editing software. I find editing programs extremely difficult to understand because I don't get along with technology. But I really want to learn more, just because I want to be able to express myself creatively in a way that feels closer to what's in my mind and how I see the world. So far, none of my videos feel "totally me" and that's because I struggle with technology a lot and it's like it creates this barrier between my mind and what I want to put into the world as a reflection. I'll have to keep learning and be okay with feeling disconnected from my vids until I learn how to use things properly. I've been posting vids on yt since 2007, exploring my own mind, my life, the lives of my friends (I remember when I used to make vids with my friend many years ago, now deleted), and to this day I still feel like my videos aren't me. But that's okay. I love the process of filming (editing not so much) and I'll just continue and keep trying to get better at it.
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